Midpoint of sanity

The past three summers in Germany I've noticed that around week 4 of the program people get testy, irritable and more grumpy than before. Little things that never used to get on each other's nerves suddenly become unbearable and tensions start to build between people. I guess that's why programs like OYC and NYC were so awesome because in 2 weeks you can't really build anything up to a point where things are uncomfortable.

I'm just into week 4 of my training and I'm starting to feel it. It's hard when you are cooped up with the same group of people for 8-10 hours a day and having to constantly throw on the happy face is exhausting. I'm feeling the pressure and I feel that it's harder for me to stay focused 110%. On my practical exam today I nearly made a critical mistake that would have meant failing. I caught myself in a split second when I caught the intructor's eye and warning bells went off in my head that something was missing and something was wrong. I was so relieved I finished the exam successfully but the close call threw me off for a while.

I'm glad the weather was so gorgeous today because it really made a difference to be able to go outside and enjoy the sunshine. Right now I'm just telling myself to suck it up because in 22 weeks I'll be able to go to my happy place.